its all about me

2008-07-17T12:18:00.000+08:00

Most of the time,
I'm advising my friends
about what's wrong or right
when they call me at night.

Now im confused,
my heart says I will lose if I try.

phase of life

2008-07-11T15:28:00.002+08:00

cant believe i have left my workplace for two weeks haha. definitely feels nice to laze around, but i hope the "sometimes if its too long, you just wouldnt know what else to do to pass time" feeling doesnt come any soon haha.

anyway, people really do come and go. you cant have the same people around you all the time. its always the end of a chapter and the beginning of another. though you might try to keep in touch but its hard to stay in contact when everyones so occupied with their own lives. some might remember while some might take you for passing moments or just a pharse in their lives..

i guess just try to treasure the people around and it should suffice ((:

anyway, met with my colleagues yesterday for movie, watched hancock. the show's not bad, the beginning was probably a little boring but towards the end, it got quite nice, was a little funny too lol. try catching it!!

the wonder of it

2008-07-08T22:22:00.004+08:00

HELLO!! im back. haha.

yeaa i know i haven been blogging in a long time lol. have been trying to master the art of slacking. it really is not bad a feeling HAHA. having nothing to worry about and just sitting there, practically not having the need to do anything is indescribable ((:

met up with xian yesterday, drag her to the library with me haha. and we bought a lot of random stuff lol. i realised something too, the pizza hut at westmall now no longer cater for dining, they only do deliveries! i want my hawaiian pizza!! HAHA.

taiwan

2008-06-15T22:46:00.018+08:00

i realised i haven blogged ever since i got back from taiwan haha. have been trying to get used to life back in singapore. no la.. but ahh i miss taiwan. coming back means i have to get back to work. but im quitting the following friday!!! YAY! haha. gonna slack all i want! but school's gonna start soon too and it'll be back to intensive revisions once again. cant believe how fast 8 months just went by ever since the a levels.

anyway taiwan was FUN! lol. was there for a week. shall let the photos do the work, yes i know im lazy haha.

before checking in at terminal three ((:

our plane in the background

at the immigration

upon arrival!

their train ticket/coin? haha

wu fen bu on the other end of the zebra crossing haha.

Rouhe Ye Shi

their egg oster

bah kut teh!

their ice-cream with peanut!! wrapped in popiah style :D

the temple that didnt collapse during the earthquake

entrance of the UFO

(yes we sat on it!) haha

and this too! LOL. (sorry yy! haha)

we took this outside one of the fanciful restaurants in taiwan

TAIPEI 101

then it started to rain

shilin night market!!

Then it was time to go back...

i miss taiwan!

second dayy

2008-05-28T00:28:00.003+08:00

HEYY!! hahaha. managed to put up a post while im in taiwan! lol. currently in this business room, with two computers that have internet access (: good thing no one is using at this time haha.

staying at parkview hotel at hualien tonight. its really grand here. they have indoor and outdoor pools with plently of jacuzzis' (oh no did i spell that correctly? haha) and they provided us with buffet dinner!! visited quite a few places today but mostly spent on travelling from taipei all the way here. we just swam, it was quite exhausting la cosidering that ermm we haven swam IN A WHILE! hahaha. and smth ultimate funny happened to laoying! minx!! xian!! you two can go ask her! HAHA.

anyway, super tiring to type using this keyboard, have to press very hard in order for the words to appear on the screen haha. moreover,tml's morning call is at 630!! i seriously dunno how im gonna wake up.. lol

okayy i better rush yy and make her stop laughing at herself while using the com ( i wonder whyy too hahaha)

terminal three

2008-05-26T07:43:00.000+08:00

HELLO!! hahaha. blogging from the airport. the morning was kinda in a mess with yy and i not knowing what to do lol. rushing here and there and finally we checked in. yes, she's gonna make me admit that im late again haha.

waiting for our flight now. sighhs, feeling excited yet worried lol.

anyway see ya all in a week's time ((:

what if i

2008-05-21T21:35:00.007+08:00

ahhh im now hooked on to this song!! got people sitting around me in the office hooked onto it too haha. but it's a super sad song especially the chorus. but dun you think its also super sweet haha. try watching the music video, he teared while singing it!!

What if i by Bosson

Most of the time
I'm advising my friends
About what's wrong or right
When they call me at night

Now I'm confused
'Coz my mind says I'm a fool
That it's time to say goodbye
But my tears cannot lie
And my heart says I will lose if I try

What if I would sacrifice my life for you
What if I would say I'd give up my dreams too
What if you were mean to be my destiny
But what if love, was never meant for you and me

I'm trying real hard
Cause I know that a friend is something you can't be
Our love is too deep
Or is this our fate
Just a never ending battle no one else can see
I refuse to give in
But I'm afraid to start something we can't win

Love is magic
Love is irresistible
But love is fearless and not able to see
Love is gorgeous
Love is unpredictable
But love is brainless and sometimes so are we

And our love was never meant for you and me
No our love was never meant for you and me

its in moments of decision that our destiny is shaped

batam

2008-05-19T22:21:00.012+08:00

BATAM was awesome!! hahaha.

went there for a day trip. the place really changed a lot since the last time i was there but it's still as crowded as ever haha. did a lot of eating and walking as usual lol. the people there are also quite friendly ((: we wanted to take the later ferry back but it was already all fully booked! everyone's making full use of their time spent there! haha. k shall let the pictures do the talking haha. nights.

the ferry we took across. a 45mins ferry ride

everyone rushing to begin their expediture lol.

yes, welcome to BATAM! ((:

their local food

and fruit..

and other local products.. haha

their biggest shopping mall ((:

colourful right!!!

and they have A & W!!

my brother and i, we just randomly took a picture to show that we were there hahaha.

HEYY ((:

2008-05-13T22:01:00.003+08:00

ahhh i realised i really haven written in here for a long long time!!! haha.

time flies and its already may. so much for being 5 months into the year. results, uni registering, work... life has been normal i guess, just without having classmates around twentyfourseven. really miss the class!!

work has seriously become quite a big part of me, i guess it take minds off problems, things one dun wanna think about, matters some dun wanna face. yes avoiding isnt the solution.. but i guess there are times one choose to wanna forget..

times that have been most precious are moments that surprises

anyway, i've changed the song here haha.

tattoo by jordin sparks

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

[Chorus]
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo
(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have youI'll always have you, I'll always have you)

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

HALF DAY

2008-02-27T14:57:00.008+08:00

HAVING HALF DAY IS A GIFT! haha.
(though i wished i had the full day) :p

just got to work not too long ago. had the morning off. met up with my beloved twinn!! haha. i dunno, i guess the beauty of not having to see each other for a while is that you end up having a lot to talk about, endless stuff to rant about. had funn from trying of corporate wear to finding the complete and matching office wear, tucking in our blouses, and you going on that i shouldnt be wearing it like a school uniform haha. seriously miss times like this and even more when you leave for hongkong!! ahhh hope to hear the good news next week ((:

anyway just the other day, took the train and it went pass buona vista. had this sudden nostalgic feeling when i saw ac students boarding the train. i dunno, it made me feel old and at the same time miss school BADLY.

oh wells.

at a loss

2008-02-25T15:31:00.003+08:00

do people always make mistakes or is it just me.

dinner with pals

2008-02-22T09:50:00.013+08:00

photos!! someone complained for not putting them up! haha.anyway headed to central for dinner on valentines. dinner with the girls was great. enjoying the night walk at clark quay after dinner, snapping pictures, laughing at silly jokes, disturbing one another. priceless time. and theres this turkish ice cream booth thats quite interesting there too. shant say much about it, drop by and you will know what im refering about haha.

ahhh i keep yawning away. sighs. its work work and more work.

mahanttan seafood platter

CAKES!

love potions haha!!

something looked interesting..

nice hair haha

the day

2008-02-19T16:57:00.006+08:00

29th feb? 3rd march? everyone's saying its either one of these days. ahhh i wished it was much later.

speaking about results, saw this man at the lift this morning and he asked me how come im working. so i told him that i was waiting for results. he said that his son is waiting for results too and asked how i feel my results will be like. "errr not good, the later it's released, the longer i can enjoy my holidays." haha. so i asked how does his son feel about it and he replied, "ohh quite confident, but i would say over-confident. he told me 3 As wouldnt be a problem but he's aiming for four to study medicine."

if only that was something i could say..

fate sealed.

sweetness

2008-02-18T11:31:00.016+08:00

You know when guys give girls real roses,
the girl would say: "Your love for me will die as soon as the rose dies :( "

When guys give girls fake roses,
the girl would say: "Your love for me is fake!!! :( "

So now, i've got a better choice for you guys.

Buy 99 real roses and one fake rose.Give it to her and say:"My love for you will end when the last one dies."

got it from weizhen..

i know girls sound kinda unreasonable here haha. but ehh you cant blame girls for wanting to feel loved :p

its valentines

2008-02-15T11:58:00.008+08:00

♥ HAPPY belated VALENTINE'S DAY! ♥

its always heart-warming to see old couples holding hands, as loving as newly-weds. looking at them i always wonder why are break-ups so common.

i guess communication is very important in every relationship/friendship. quarrels and arguments are inevitable, but it is these falling-outs which will put relationships to test and display the care and love they have for one and other. apart so, i guess patience tolerance trust and understanding are also essential.

sometimes the more you think
you know the person,
the more you actually realise
you dont understand them.

seasons change, people change.

chinese new year

2008-02-12T10:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!!
WISHING EVERYONE ALL THE BEST WISHES.

cant believe how fast each time cny comes and goes. just got back from msia, spent cny with my grandfather and we met relatives that we only get to see once a year. dint do much of visiting this year but ate a lot there. its like when theres nothing to do, you eat. yes EAT haha. and the weather there was really really warm such that showering in cold water wasnt a problem!

sighs the long cny holidays are over and its back to work. actually i realised that once cny's over, theres arent that many more festive holidays to look forward to. yeaa no more red packets :p haha.

look at the FOOD!!

the shop is that crowded and that small haha

muar chee

the penang bridge

2008-02-04T15:33:00.000+08:00

ahhh sorry, yeaaa i know my blog is kinda in a MESS right now haha. will hopefully be done soon , if i can figure out how to edit it :p

new songg

2008-01-29T21:38:00.000+08:00

i heard A's might be out next week ahhh. i still want my happy holidays!! i dun want there to be regret and remorse!! i know theres nothing i can do now.

so...

shall just say i changed the song on my blog. had been on the top of my playlist.

try listening! ((:

Over It by Katharine Mcphee

I'm over your lies,
and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,
when you know I'm not okay.
You call me at night,
and I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me,
I know you're not alone.
oh..

That's why (your eyes)
I'm over it (your smile)
I'm over it (realize)
I'm over it, i'm over it
I'm over..

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm over your hands,
and I'm over your mouth.
Trying to drag me down,
and fill me with self-doubt.
oh..

That's why (your words)
I'm over it (so sure)
I'm over it (I'm not your girl)
I'm over it

I'm over it
I'm over...

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

Don't call,
don't come by,
ain't no use,
don't ask me why,
you'll never change,
there'll be no more crying in the rain.

touring

2008-01-28T17:33:00.001+08:00

supposed to be resting ytd. but ended up not being able to resist shopping haha. so there, shopping at central with yy. i need to say NEVER WEAR SKIRTS WHEN YOU HEAD FOR CENTRAL! haha its really not safe cos there are like glass panels everywhere.

had dinner at subway and there were people doing math with their GCs on the table. yeaa we peeped at their worksheets and they were from sa. definte integrals!! haha. i kinda miss doing integration!! and there was somebody who cldnt bear to leave subway, experiencing neck cramps hahaha.

walked along clark quay in the evening.
evening breeze + background music + good companies = beautiful sunday haha

decided to head for chinatown to experience the cny ambience haha. seriously chinatown during cny is CROWDED!! other than that i heard its always quiet? they were giving out free cny goodies so wrappers were everywhere and everyone was squeezing their way through.

though it was very rush i had a great time ((:

yeaa these were for free haha

rest dayy

2008-01-27T00:49:00.000+08:00

ahhh my arms hurt so badly again. HAHA. dint know banquet can be so tiring. walking up and down the big ballroom, serving wine, balancing a tray of wine glasses with just the left hand, trying to comprehend what the guests are requesting when the loud music is blasting. ahhh so glad its finally sunday. im finally free yay!! ((:

shall go and sleep soon. slept at 3 last night and woke up at 7. i dunno whyy but i just couldnt go back to sleep.

so goodnight world

post 179

2008-01-22T22:12:00.000+08:00

realised i haven blogged in a while. besides the post on the 19th of jan, haven blogged in a week or so. life have been the same. work work and more work and dinners with friends who are all also working. so i guess dinners are the only time.

anyway dint go to work in the morning cos i had to go for an appointment. felt good not having to wake up so early, felt good to sleep in. ahh it just felt good to not have to go to work. haha. met up with xian after that for lunch. had a great time talking and taking pictures ((: and the whole place was really empty so we were like the very few people there. an excuse to take more pictures :p haha. all the fortunate people are at school!!

saw jennifer training at ben and jerrys today. she said she get to try all their flavours!! one reason why she went there to work HAHA! but it really seem quite fun. everyones working at ben and jerrys.

one of the longer post in a while haha. anyway i had a wonderful time today! (minus the terrifying incident) haha. thanks xian ((:

the 18th of JAN

2008-01-19T13:53:00.000+08:00

IM NEVER GONNA FORGET THE 18TH OF JANUARY! haha my arms are aching so badly. all because of somebody haha.

timess

2008-01-10T10:28:00.000+08:00

im tired tired tired tired!

life has been pretty boring haha. revolving about work. with computers and piles and piles of documents to accompany me everyday. haha and quoting from someone "welcome to the working lifee" haha. arghh i miss school and i missed orientation, heard that it was a blast.

miss hanging out with friends.

minx xian yy drea xh jessie joy jehanne tab rosel tong zhiwei gary matin peiyan sarah mel rousainna pinchian weilson jason

SAthree!! - trix lele poh bang erwin kiku claire xinling joel qiannie fangling august bobby keepz tammie mark toonhwee yuling xinyi yinzhen anli rayston and geyi
trix: when's the next class outing? ((:

golf!! - jess chris genna joyce val yiying

'the times when we would play about
the way we used to scream and shout '

2008-01-04T17:16:00.001+08:00

its a disaster.

things dint turn out the way it was planned.
i thought it started off great?

why did it had to happen and ruin everything?

im sorry feeling kinda down right now.

first entry

2008-01-01T11:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

MAY 2008 BE A BLESSED YEAR AHEAD ((:

shall start my first entry for the year with a joyous occasion. my cousin got married just a few days ago, on the last few days of 2007. looking at them pledged their love for each other makes u feel so happy for them.

whereby.

two lives
two hearts
joined together in friendship
united forever in love
to share all
the days of their lives

the bride and the groom ((:

sigh im down with an allergy on the last day of 2007. never had it before so
was kinda scared when it was all red. glad that yy yx and minx were there.

they kept saying at least it dint happen on the 1st day of '08. so it isnt a bad beginning for the coming year, more like setting aside all the horrible things that happened in '07 and it will be forgotten. haha. thanks ((:

regardless of it, countdown with them was a blast. had so much fun laughing. took so many crazy pictures. on the road, squeezing the four of us into a bench, walking in the dark, scaring ourselves, making oursleves look like gh***s haha. and laoying entertaining herself with her 9pm show, minx asking about her voice and xian getting doubles all the time whenever she dint want it. haha. it was awesome spending time together ((:

there is nothing more i can ask but spending the last few hours of 2007 with them ((:

photos up soon x)

2007-12-30T21:53:00.000+08:00

why did you have to lie?

it doesnt.

2007-12-30T10:36:00.001+08:00

cant believe its almost the end of the year. it is times like this where most will reflect on what happened over the past year. i can say there were lots of emotions involved for me this year. times that were filled with joy and laughter. definitely times that were filled with tears. and not forgetting times where i felt lost and uncertain of myself as well as the people around me. but im glad to have pulled through. regardless whether it made me a stronger or weaker person, i must say i've learn quite a bit from the many things that had happened.

but i just wanna say,

all good things DON'T always come to an end ((:

vietnam ((:

2007-12-26T14:25:00.000+08:00

im back !! (a day early) ((: got the date of return all mixed up haha. just got back last night (: i would say returning back here feels peaceful and quiet. haha. breathing feels much easier and you can cross the road without fear. 8 million people in ho chi minh with 4 million motorcycles. imagine the whole population in singapore with motorcycles. haha. still not counting the number of cars on the road!!

the trip was an experience. taxi fares are really cheap. as long as the journey is less than 4km it only cost $1.20-$1.50 haha. but there wasnt much to shop there. ohh but i will not forget to say that FOOD there is wonderful :p

much of the time was spent on learning about their history and culture. went to museums to understand what had happened during the vietnam war. was really shocked at the sight of them. oh no no one will be here after these two pictures are up. haha.

victims of the bombings

anyway here are other photos ((:

where they hid during the 15 years

this is how small it is (imagine living in it for 15 years)

a forest floor that look like any normal one

but ohh, its another hide-out

and this is even smaller

their cosy dinner table (:

beautiful sunset but look at the traffic. haha

they're selling balloons ((:

i know its slightly late but..

MERRY CHRISTMAS

(i heard theres 12 days of xmas)

from this moment

2007-12-15T20:16:00.000+08:00

attended my cousin's wedding just the other day. two of my other friends' siblings are getting married too. everyone's getting married. haha. i guess december is a good year for marriage? :p and from this moment is really a good song for such occasions. haha.

here goes,

(I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything
And everything and I will always care.
Through weakness
And strength happiness and sorrow for better for worse
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I Iive
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this momentI will love you as long as I live

From this moment on..

haha. so sweet right.

anyway cant believe its almost the end of the year. time flies. still remember the days where we were preparing for prelims and A's. haha. saying," before you know it its over" and now its really over. haha.

16 more days t0 2008 ((:

inconsolable

2007-12-11T10:55:00.001+08:00

i sldnt be blogging from where i am now. shhh. haha. anyway had great fun with the clique yesterday ((: ate at newyork newyork. yes xian we got the candy floss from there. haha. but as usual we cldnt decide on a place to eat initially. lolx. reminised a lot of our sc days. memories memories and more memories. happy ones, sad ones and even memories that made us laugh non-stop.

really had lots of fun yesterday ((:

anyway, changed the song on my blog after quite some time. haha. dint know they had a new album.

Inconsolable by backstreet boys

I close the door

Like so many times, so many times before

Felt like a scene on the cutting room floor

When I let you walk away tonight without a word

I try to sleep, yeah

But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me

A thousand more regrets unraveling, OOoh

if you were here right now

I swear, I'd tell you this

Baby I don't wanna waste another day

Keepin this inside, it's killing me

Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you (to you)

I wish that I could find the words to say

Baby I would tell you every time you leave

I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls, yeah

I can see the edge,

But I can't take the fall, no

I've memorized the number

So why can't I make the call?

Maybe cause I know you'll always be with me

In the possibility

Baby I don't wanna waste another day

Keepin it inside, it's killing me

Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you (to you)

I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave

I'm inconsolable

No, no, no

I don't wanna be like this

I just wanna let you know

That everything I hold in
Is everything I can't let go (oooh, can't let go)

Cause,

BABY, I don't wanna waste another day

Keepin it inside, it's killing me

Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you (to you)

I wish that I could find the words to say

Baby I would tell you every time you leave

I'm inconsolable

Don't you know it baby

I don't wanna waste another day
I wish that I could find the words to say

Baby I would tell you, every time you leave

I'm inconsolable

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Oooh, I'm inconsolable

Whoaa yeah yeah OoOoH

I'm inconsolable...

2007-12-07T18:19:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging in a while. the number of entires should be increasing since there isnt any reason to say that theres no time to blog. haha. which i suppose is a good thing, since it means that i dun spend too much time on the com ((:

everyone seem to be caught up with their own lives. those who are already working, those going in to army, and i realise that it gets harder to arrange outings as a group. sometimes i wonder what if friends start to drift from one another. it is times like these that i start to miss school. though there were tons and tons of work plus tests, however it was nice to be around familiar faces, people you have fun with and can talk to.

anyway, went for beatrix's party @ gardenvilla last friday. was funnn to meet up with the class and the other sc gals. prom on monday was okayy. however i felt that the food wasnt worth 98 bucks, but i cant deny that the ballroom settings was greatt ((: stayed over at shangri-la and managed to catch up on quite a bit ((:

cant wait to meet up with the clique SOON!

ENCHANTED

2007-11-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

ENCHANTED IS SO NICE AND SWEET! haha. the typical happily ever after ending! went to watched it with xh and drea ((: when it ended, it was like, "awww, its back to reality." haha. and i was thinking how true it is, sometimes things just dun go the way we want it to be. and we wonder whether happily ever afters are fascinations? something that will never happen?

maybe it does exist, just that its different for each and everyone. everybody has a different happily ever after?

anyway, read this part from an interview done with patrick dempsey.

What's your defination of true love?

"Theres is a magical quality to true love. It's not without cost or pain and agony. Love comes with sacrifice. You have to love the flaws in the person more than you love the good qualities, and if you can live with the flaws, then you can have true love."

2007-11-25T18:00:00.000+08:00

i know this is an ultimate old song. haha. heard it in the car on gold 90.5 haha. buts its really nice. went home i immediately to youtube it. haha.

Just Once by James Ingram

I did my best

But I guess my best wasn't good enough

'Cause here we are back where we were before

Seems nothing ever changes

We're back to being strangers

Wondering if we oughta stay

Or head on out the door

Just once can't we figure out what we keep doing wrong

Why we never last for very long

What are we doing wrong

Just once can't we find a way to finally make it right

Make the magic last for more than just one night

If we could just get to it

I know we could break through it

I gave my all

But I think my all may have been too much

'Cause Lord knows we're not getting anywhere

Seems we're always blowing whatever we got going

And seems at times with all we've got

We haven't got a prayer

Just once can't we figure out what we keep doing wrong

Why the goodtimes never last for very long

Seems we're always blowing

Whatever we got going

Just once can't we find a way to finally make it right

Make the magic last for more than just one night

If we could just get to it

I know we could break through it

Just once I want to understand

Why it always come back to good-bye

Why can't we get ourselves in hand

And admit to one another

That we're no good with out the other

Take the best and make it better

Find a way to stay together

Just once can't we find a way to finally make it right

Make the magic last for more than just one night
I know we can break through it

If we could just get to it

Just once

If we could get to it

Just Once...

ohh just got these class dinner photos from keepz ((:

2007-11-23T11:26:00.000+08:00

ARGHH im down with a cold and it feels terrible. kiku i understand how you must have felt. haha.

its one week into the holidays, really have no idea what i have been doing over the past week. i guess it was shopping shopping and more shopping, to make up for time lost :p

but argh walking was the horrible part. haha.

2007-11-17T02:16:00.000+08:00

IM RARELY UP AT THIS TIME. haha

its over. its finally over! ((: but i dunno why it just doesnt feel so. all i know is that i dun have to study at least for the next 7 mths! haha. but chem today was bad, it was horrible. ahhh. dun wanna think about it anymore.

shall just treasure my holidays for now. theres so many things i wanna do. had everything all planned out before the a's, yet now im at a lost on where to start. haha.

arghh

2007-11-14T21:23:00.000+08:00

finally its down to the last paper on friday. chem chem CHEM paper one. 40%. something to work hard for since i kinda screwed econs today. shouldnt be feeling the way i felt just now, walking out of the badminton hall feeling as if i dint know what i was writing.

BACKKK

2007-11-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

I HAVEN BLOGGED FOR AGES!!! haha.

had geog and chem papers ytd. chem was horrible though i was glad there werent any organic story telling, every other question had smth to do with organic!!! ahhh. and geog! reading thousand pages of geog notes with only plate tect appearing!!! and there was this 5 mark question asking to outline how would we conduct a traffic survey. haha.

six papers down, four more to go. i cant wait for this whole thing to end.. but with the thought of results, shant wanna think about that JUST YET.
looking forward to the 16th ((:

and it feels nice to meet an old friend you haven seen in a while, seeing how much they have change and not recognising them :p

'think of barriers not as obstacles, but as opportunities'

photos ((:

2007-10-13T21:49:00.000+08:00

Baccalaureate was on wed!

cant believe how fast two years just went by..

Kuishinbo with the class after that and we ate so much that we couldnt even laugh!!! anyway here are some of the photos we took ((:

short of 3? haha

the girls ((:

where did mdm go?

ohhh there she is!! HAHA
WE LOVE GP ((:

joel and keith toh!! :p

THE TOHS!

awwww...

Kuishinbo :D

and some of the other photos ((:

the brutal reality

2007-10-01T21:05:00.000+08:00

geog lecture today was should i say enlightening? haha. made me not wanna regret what im doing now. shall try my very best to make full use of the next 30 days..

hearing about the classic scenario of the day of results..

"at 2pm you receive your results, you look at it and you cry. your friends and teachers will be there to comfort you, they tell you its okay, but deep down inside you know and they know it isnt. at 4 pm your teachers leave and at 6pm your friends will start to leave too. Probably some of your good friends will stay behind to keep you company but at 8pm, they leave and at 9m, you get chase out by the guards of the school. you call your friends but they are out celebrating and you are left all by yourself to face the consequences of your past actions. once out of the scool gate, you are no longer 'sheltered' by the school but a member of the society with horrible grades."

this shouldnt be happening come 2008 :(

US

2007-09-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

the people that made my day!

lifeeee

2007-09-22T18:36:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging in a while. anything and everything isnt turning out well. lessons are going at full pace, people are picking up the momentum with just 39 more days to A's, not the countdown to prelims but the actual countdown to A's! what am i doing!!

anyway,

Happy Belated 4+14 th Birthday Tammie Koh!

thanks for all the smiles and laughter. its has really been great having you around in school ((: hope you liked your castle! haha.

was talking to yy on the phone this afternoon and she scolded me for not calling. haha. i suddenly felt i really miss them. i miss the times where we all hung out together everyday after school. i miss the company. i miss all the funn and nonsense.. conferencing laterr ((:

reality check

best of luck (:

2007-09-09T23:21:00.000+08:00

ALL THE BEST FOR PRELIMS!!! ((:
yy. minx. yx

chan yiying asked why she doesnt see her name in any entry. so here goes, an extra goodluck for prelims specially for you ((: haha.

2007-09-03T23:49:00.000+08:00

why do impression change that easily..

.why did it happen.

stay happy (:

2007-09-02T22:47:00.000+08:00

treat each day like a gift from heaven, even if it leaves us in tears or remorse, treasure each day like its the last. its important to be happy and it might influence the people around you ((:

even if happiness forgets you a little bit,
never completely forget about it.

memories

2007-08-31T19:58:00.000+08:00

went back to sc today. i miss the 66 route down to school, the drive down the stretch of bukit timah. i miss the food. i miss the sc culture, most of all i miss all the people there. the memories and the friendships forged in that wonderful school. met up with andrea, clara and beatrix. and we were all saying that even when the food we buy from the canteen is cold, it still taste as nice as ever ((:

sc has changed quite a bit since the last time i was there. especially the canteen, with more stalls and one that sells youghurt with fruits! theres even a plasma screen in the canteen now. really miss the times there, where we stand at the courtyard for flag-raising with ms heng singing the school song aloud every morning. and how we were always told that our socks cant be seen or that our belts are too low. and the time capsual!!

saw michelle, adeline, colleen and mich soo and we started snapping photos. haha. we were also counting the number of times we met this year. and we realised that we saw each other 3 out of the 365 days, which is once in 121 days!! haha.

met up with xian and yy after that and i was late :p sorry! we started roaming town. haha. felt great to be around them again ((: minx should have been there. bet it would have been better :p

OVER

2007-08-28T22:55:00.000+08:00

prelims are OVER!! dunno whether i should say fortunately or unfortunately. really feel liberated but it also mean the harsh reality of results.

anyway went to watch license to wed with tammie bang and erwin right after chem and the theatre was empty. its nice to be out when theres no one. haha. we were in town so early in the morning, most of the shops werent open yet. ate at pastamania and we were told initially to wait outside as they only open in 5 mins. haha.

license to wed was not bad. funny show. looking at the silly things they do. lolx. shopped around a while after that. walked all the way down to far east. oh and i dint know that theres this new system at some of the bus stops in town which allow us to find out when the next bus is coming.. ((:

saw kristal chua twice at mango and far east. haha. heard her exams are over too ((:

2007-08-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

i thought it wouldnt matter
i thought everything would be fine
but the memories..
everything that happened
just keeps coming back..
and its hard to hold back the tears.

break...

2007-08-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

shant start complaining on my papers here again.. haha. i guess a whole day of it is already enough. but it really was bad..

i guess i should just accept what the future holds. someone once said this, " life is made up of many turning points, sometimes it takes a crisis to find out who you are, what you stand for and what you stand against. And those times of crisis are defining moments of our lives. "

anyway, im just glad that theres no school tomorrow.

THE song

2007-08-19T20:20:00.000+08:00

have been listening to this song over and over again during the weekend.. its nice ((:

'4 In The Morning' by Gwen Stefani

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
& all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[ CHORUS ]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handing over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning
& the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have

& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

PRELIMS!!

2007-08-17T21:03:00.000+08:00

haven been updating in a while.. and its prelims already..
one week down, two more weeks to go..

screwed up my chem paper today.. ALWAYS REMEMBER TO READ THE INSTRUCTIONS BEFORE STARTING THE PAPER!! haha. i've really learnt that today.. dint realise that we only had to do 4 out of the 5 questions so i was sitting there wondering how come the paper had a total of 80 marks if there were 5 questions, 20 marks each! so i thought maybe both qn 4 and 5 are a total of 20! ahhhh.. dint even realise it when i saw augustine did the back questions first! i thought he skipped questions.. and TIME MANAGEMENT!! had 10 mins to do a 14 mark organic story telling question!

ahhh and geog was bad too.. dint even know what a karst or a tor was.. so i couldnt describe their formation..!! and said they were blocks of rock! oh no, this is bad.. haha. its time to study geog..

sorry to those who heard me whine on and on today.. haha. especially the geog people, tammie claire and bang.. haha. k i shant think about it.. two more weeks of prelims to go..

i'll pray for the miracle to happen..

true?

2007-08-12T22:37:00.000+08:00

was just on the phone, and i realised that its really true that "in loosing it that we learn to know how to cherish.."

as simple as it sounds, as easy as it is to understand, but i realised that many of us fail to see what is actually going on/happening around us. whether its the slightest things or matters or even the people around us.. we tend to choose not to face up to it..

i need miracles

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINZHEN!

2007-08-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINZHEN!!!

thanks for all the joy and laughter. thanks for all the company. thanks for every moment spent. more importantly thanks for tolerating all my nonsense.. haha. though i know i always get laughed at. haha. just wanna say school really wouldnt have been great without you (:

i miss those times

2007-08-09T18:40:00.000+08:00

finally ended school early on tues. met up with yy to study before going for tuition and we took pictures too.. your favourite photo is up alr YY!! haha.

walked around with keepz before that at lot 1 too and she showed me the brown bear from mini toons.. haha.

its good to be out at times like this, not having to worry about anything for the moment, enjoying the times spent with frens.. i miss the times spend with the group.. yiying yixian and minx and the fun times we had..

regret..

2007-08-05T01:18:00.000+08:00

shouldnt be up at this time.. haha. but i cant fall asleep counting the number of days there are to prelims.. :( i need help and i need time badly!!!

dun like regretting. dun like regretting decisions or actions made/done in the past. regretting not following our hearts. regretting when clear signs were ahead yet choosing not to believe in them. ahhh regretting really feels horrible and its something thats difficult to change from the moment the wrong decision was done.

always treasure whats ahead and not neglect them. as once its gone its hard to get it back..

IMPOSSIBLE

2007-08-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

" Impossible is just a big word thrown away by small men,
who find it easier to live in a world they have been given
Than to explore the power they have to change it.
Impossible is not a fact. It is an opinion
Impossible is not a declaration. It is a dare.
Impossible is potential.
Impossible is temporary.
Impossible is nothing. "

ahhh, prelims are in 12 days!! :(

wonderful timess

2007-07-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

finally managed to upload the photos. so sorry twin for the delay.. :p

met up with my twin the other day. haha. we had so much fun fooling around to laughing to pouring our hearts out. its always great to meet up with friends u haven seen in a while..

its great to be able to smile without having anything to worry about. its great to catch up with people i miss. most importantly, its great having you around (:

helplessness?

2007-07-25T19:50:00.000+08:00

school was the same, with the preparations for prelims. 19 days now i must say.. had quite a long break since 5 blocks of gp was cancelled. went to the cafe to slack.. and yinzhen was so engrossed reading her book that she was totally oblivious i took this photo of her. shes gonna kill me for putting this up.. haha.

anyone experienced the kind of helplessness where we can rely on no one but ourselves? have been feeling it quite often lately.. i dunno why.. but it really doesnt feel good.. :(

when will it disappear? :(

truee?

2007-07-23T21:04:00.001+08:00

words can determine
the way we think,
and how we feel,
which will affect our
decisions, actions and habits
and ultimately
decide our character and destiny..

aimlessly

2007-07-20T20:59:00.000+08:00

if life was that simple and predictable..

where the beginning and the end was that downright clear..

in that case, we wouldnt wander aimlessly..

food!!

2007-07-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

imagine eating it twice in a week both after 10pm.. haha.

ya, thats what i have been doing over the weekend.. haha.

eating, eating and more eating..

an excuse to "de-stress" ? :p

prelims!!

2007-07-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

should i say its 29 days to prelims.. :( hopefully counting down will allow me to realise how close prelims are and that i ought to be studying rather than just wasting my time away..

went for gp mock today.. ended up not going for math.. had a great talk with keepz on our way home today. sorry keepz for not going for it in the end.. :(

and i just realised that i haven been updating.. :p have been quite caught up with school stuff and everything, not to mention DC on monday.. haha.

quite a lot happened the past week and sometimes i really miss the old times where everything's simple and uncomplicated, with less things to worry about.. that reminds me of this morning essay topic..

"Work keeps us alive but play keeps us young." Is there a healthy balance between work and leisure in your country?

counting down

2007-07-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

ITS 34 DAYS TO PRELIMS!!!

i dun wanna endure another day..

newwww songgg

2007-07-07T21:56:00.001+08:00

went for math lecture today and nobody expected so many people to turn up.. haha. LT5 just wasnt big enough.. its good for those who dun like reading lecture notes cause every main point of the topic was covered (:

went for lunch with yinzhen and erwin after that, wanted to go for meatballs at ikea, but it was crowded so we ended up eating at anchorpoint.. ohh and i managed to change the size of my slippers (: and yinzhen bought her ya, shant say it here.. :p haha. went to study after that at serene. another day gone.. i dun wan monday to come :(

i need time!!!

anw, changed the song on my blog.. (:

When You Say You Love Me
I've been watching you from afar
And the way you make your way around the bar
You laugh like youre really entertained
And you smile like its your favourite game

Now you're moving closer to me
And our eyes have connected emotionally
Not looking for a one night stand
Or a place for a broken heart can mend

I know everybody here wants to hold you
I know what its like cause i feel the same
When you look in my eyes theres a part of me thats still afraid

And when you say you love me do you mean it?
Baby when you hold me do you feel it?
Should i believe the magic in your eyes?
I will wait until the end of time
To here you say you love me like you mean it
Baby when you hold me make me feel it
All i wanna do is make you mine
i've been hurt way too many times...

They say
If you wanna make god laugh
Then all you gotta do is tell him your plan
And i know that the timings not right
Didn't know i would meet you tonight
Its not that i don't really like the attention
i feel luckier than men in the room
Are you really sincere?
Is this just something that you do?

And when you say you love me do you mean it?
Baby when you hold me do you feel it?
Should i believe the magic in your eyes?
I will wait until the end of time
To here you say you love me like you mean it
Baby when you hold me make me feel it
All i wanna do is make you mine
i've been hurt way too many times...

Again and again and again i've been hurt my friend till the end
You know i've been high i've been low i got no place left to go
Again and again and again will this search ever end

And when you say you love me do you mean it?
Baby when you hold me do you feel it?
Should i believe the magic in your eyes?
I will wait until the end of time
To here you say you love me, do you mean it?
(oh baby when you hold me)
When you hold me make me feel it
Should I believe the magic in your eyes?
i will wait until the end of time
To hear you say you love me...
Come on baby say you love me...

lifeeee

2007-07-06T23:11:00.000+08:00

haven been updating.. been really busy and everything. shant elaborate on school life, its just hectic..

this kinda sound late, but met up with yy and xian last weekend. minx was missing cos she had to prepare for her midyrs.. it would have been more funnn if the four of us got together.. (: shopped on the first day after the increase to 7%, the good thing was town wasnt as crowded. haha.

anw how much would you price the chain in the picture? guess what happened? haha. we were shopping for accessories at far east and i left my chain at the shop.. took me a while to realise that it wasnt around my neck.. haha. and when we got back to the shop, we found it hanging on the shelf!! i guess the owner thought that it had dropped off the counter.. haha! we couldnt stop laughing after that.. oh got to eat my favourite subway too!! haha. thanks for compromising :p

life's great with good friends around (:

space space space

2007-07-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

what can i say, another week went by.. one week down and 6 more to go.. really glad tml's a holiday, which means only four days in school next week =) school's been bad, its back to the daily routine, the stressful and hectic everyday life.. lessons, lessons and more lessons..

gp mock paper 1 and 2 ytd. checked the prepared essay outlines after seeing erwin checked his enthusiastically.. haha. so i checked mine and realise i wrote outta point.. sighs.. this seriously doesnt feel nice.. :(

golf on wed was really a good time to take our minds off all stress and pressure. went down to the course and had funnn (: though the sun was really scorching hot la.. haha. we took photos of our triplet bottles (:

mine, jess, tammie

erwin was praising himself for his skills in arranging this.. haha.

lele's pandan cake!! (notice anything? haha)

changes?

2007-06-29T21:14:00.000+08:00

what are changes? i've been thinking about it. dun you feel that sometimes the changes we come across in life are predictable while some just catch us off guard..

its destiny-filtered, heart grown, faith built. i guess the effect varies with individuals, sometimes it's uncomfortable or even awkward and at times even painful and unbearable. its natural for us to resist changes, but i guess at times we just have to accept it, try to accept each day as it comes, accept what lies ahead. however sometimes too, the changes might not be what we perceive it to be..

but change call upon our own strength beyond anyone of us. Change push us to do our personal best. Change will cause us to learn. Change seeks a better place at the end and is complete when we realize we are different.

time poverty

2007-06-26T20:20:00.000+08:00

"6 weeks is all that i have with you and 7 weeks to prelims, we are currently suffering from time poverty ", that was what mdm said to us the minute we stepped into class. it was then reality struck us and we realise that there really isnt much time left..

i can feel the rush of adrenaline that makes me feel sick..

why is there so much to do with so little left time left..

HELP!!

2007-06-24T12:38:00.000+08:00

changed my blog song again. im back to chinese songs.. haha. no la, heard this song on 愛情經紀約. actually it sounds like an oldieee.. haha. but the tune is nice and it has meaningful lyrics.. a sad one too.. currently still having problems with internet explorer..

arghh, i cant believe we will be back to school tml. i know i shouldnt be complaining since there isnt midyrs and im glad cause im seriously not prepared.. i can feel the fear and pressure building up within me and im scared. real scared..

i dun wanna fail..

4 months is all that i have got..

newww

2007-06-24T01:30:00.000+08:00

finally blogspot's working!! just changed my blogskin with the help of my brother if not by the time im done the sun would probably have been up.. haha. still having someproblems with it but i cant keep my eyes open anymore!! will continue tomorrow.. (:

love is the closest thing there is to magic. cherish it..

nights (:

science centre (:

2007-06-22T20:25:00.000+08:00

was at science centre the whole day with tammie. dint do much of facilitating today, ended up surfing the net, stonning and cutting slips of stickers ( and we were especially told to cut them slowly so that we wun be left with nth to do after that. haha) and cause the entire course today was basically theory. proteins to genes or is it genes to proteins? :p

haven seen so many kids in a long time.. seeing all the kindergarden kids made us feel old. by like more than ten years? and watching them play at the water area made us miss being young again :(

we explored science centre after that. haven been there for ages la.. losta things changed. had a whole lot of fun taking pictures too. yes tammie, i know you are sad that your last day of the holidays was spent with me.. haha. oh well and we tried the stimulator! cause according to her, "just go la, dun tell me you wanna come back when you are in uni, wanting to try on the ride. no right?" haha. ya so we went, and we paid to feel giddy.. haha. we were like the only two inside.. lolx.

science centre was funnn, the people there were nice and friendly. and one of the staff brings his love bird to work everyday.. and he was feeding it after lesson la. haha. really gonna miss all these funn.. sadly, school's starting in two days and it would be time to get back to some serious studying :(

studyy and funnn

2007-06-19T20:31:00.000+08:00

geog lecture today with tammie claire and bang. it was okay la.. except for the part where i get the constant glare from ya.. haha. and we ended early.. (:

just got homeee.. was at xian's place. finally get to meet her after ten thousand years! haha. ate at swensen before slacking at her place. we did study kae! i managed to study in the same room with her dog :p but i guess we got a little bored too that we started taking random photos..

we finally watched aquamarine !! dint know how to operate the disc initially, ended up pressing random buttoms to see if it works.. haha. aquamarine was quite nice, better than we expected but i guess it isnt realistic.. (:

studyy and funnn, its hard to balance..

i need more time

2007-06-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

another weekend just went by and is the fourth week of hols.. sighs. plus geog lectures on three consecutive days this week and science centre, i dun tink i have that much time left to study.. :(

slept super early ytd, went to my room at 845pm.. haha. my brother was like, " sleep so early for wad!" haha. had lunch at vivo ytd and as usual vivo was crowded!! probably cause yesterday was father's day. and i dint know the train line from sentosa to vivo was already opened. lolx. i wonder if they use ez-links or do they have to buy tickets?

shall go back to doing organic. have another 9 more deduction Qns to do :(

unpredictability

2007-06-14T21:02:00.000+08:00

i dunno.
i believe everything happens for a reason.
sometimes i wonder why certain things turn out the way it did.
at times it leaves me feeling lost and helpless..
i know there will always be a door left open for us no matter what happens,
but sometimes its just difficult to get through..

picturesss

2007-06-12T20:04:00.001+08:00

minx birthday photos!! (:

happy belated birthday minx

2007-06-11T21:14:00.001+08:00

cant believe how fast the weekend went by.. had quite a busy weekend. we celebrated minx birthday!!

HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY MINX!!!

threw a surprise for her at jack's place. fang, yy and i got her a cake and we requested that they play a birthday song for her. haha. but we never imagined that they played the chinese version instead. haha. was super funny.. we kept laughing and everyone was looking!! some of the small children were singing for her too.. haha. and we took so many photos (by ourselves) that many of the people working there offered to help us.. looking at us trying to fit the four of us into the photo.. haha. photos will be up soon :p

my family had tickets to watch a cappella chor villach at NUS. it was good though i couldnt really understand what they were singing.. lolx. and towards the end they sang local folk songs in malay!! haha. i couldnt believe it cause they could pronounce the words really well and sang it without having to look at the scores..

fun time aside, i realised its already the third week of hols!! come to think about it, i haven accomplished anything and i really dun wanna start school regretting not doing any work during the hols. i really have to get started. sit down and GET STARTED!!

2nd week already!!

2007-06-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

just got home.. watched shrek.. its nice and funny. lolx. its really better than i expected. a good show to catch (:

anw met up with yy, minx and sandra to study ytd. and yy did something quite embarassing.. haha. i shant say it here :p

i cant believe its already the second week of hols. two more weeks to go before the start of yet another hectic term. the workload will definitely be heavier, the stress and pressure will build up. i hope i can pull through.

its quite scary if we actually count the number of months before the A's.. this is it, the exam everyone have been studying for for the past few years of our education. i cant screw it up :(

mistake that shouldnt have started?

2007-06-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just feel its quite sad if friendships are jeopardised for the wrong reasons..mixed feelings or not..

if its so i feel everything probably shouldnt have started from the beginning, since there isnt the level of trust and understanding for one another..

i know different people deal with the situation differently. some might choose to avoid while others might choose to face up to it, talk it thru and come to an understanding..

so i guess it depend on individuals..

experienceee

2007-06-01T18:51:00.000+08:00

just got home.. missed the bus cause i was on the phone!! had to wait for another 20 mins for the next one to come :( a few of us went for some breifing at science centre to learn how to use the apparatus so that we will be able to help secondary school students when we are facilitating them in the lab..

i really hope nth will go wrong since the pipette cost a hundred bucks each? haha.

went back to school for econs lesson this morning and when we were on our way to je for lunch after that, suddenly this small boy came up and started hitting those sitting on the aisle. erwin got hit the most.. lolx. and he claimed its cos the boy likes him best.. haha. was quite scary, as in he just started hitting us and we dint know where were his parents.. but i guess after a while he calmed down.. lolx. luckily.. haha

aniwae here are the photos we took at choir concert the other night.. (: oh i cant believe i saw aud!! haven seen her for a year plus la that we cldnt recognise each other!! really miss her so muchhh.. ((:

new songgg

2007-05-31T19:01:00.000+08:00

stayed up till around 2 last night to finish reading my book.. and i came across this phrase,

"Even though i will leave you in the flesh, i will never leave you in spirit.
I'll be the scent of roses in the summer breeze.
I'll be your comfort in the shadows.
I'll be the creak you hear when the house settles at night.
I am going to stay with you as long as you remain here,
A good ghost who cant bring himself to depart for heaven until you can go with me."

sounds so sweet right.. lolx.

oh i changed the song on my bloggg..

its nice! (: have been listening to it for the whole day.. :p

All Good Things (Come To An End)

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

[chorus]

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

[chorus]

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

happy birthday!!!

2007-05-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

just got back from choir concert.. there were more eng songs this time (: shall put up the photos another time :p

anw, celebrated yy's bdae with minx ytd. had losta fun catching up. it would have been even better if xian was there too..

walked around town and as usual we couldnt decide on a place to eat cos everywhere was packed with people.. haha.

just wanted to say that it has been great having you around. always there to bear with all of my nonsense, there to give me advice (though u usually go against wad i say! haha) i really wanna thank you for everything.. nothing can be more wonderful than having you as a bestie.. (:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YIYING!

HOLIDAYS FINALLY!!!

2007-05-26T10:26:00.000+08:00

ITS FINALLY THE START OF THE HOLIDAYS!!!

had been in the holiday mood for the past week.. haha. i hope i will be able to make good use of this holiday, to rest as well as to catch up on my revision, not to mention there will be extra lessons and cip commitments.. nonetheless i will try my best :p haha.

anyway, ac declared half day ytd. slacked a while in school, celebrated erwin's birthday before going for my appointment so dint manage to go with the class to seoul garden. after that, met up with gary. he suggested town and i agreed, forgetting that ytd was the start of the great singapore sale plus midnight shopping. TOWN WAS CROWDED!!! went to eat at subway before i was forced to window shop. lolx. walkin from ben sherman to calvin klein jeans to fcuk. from wisma to taka to cine to heeren. ohh, far coast was nice!! haha. drank reverie ice-blended with full cream!! oh mans.. haha.

anw, we met up with sihui after that, haven seen her in a while.. i almost couldnt recognise her!!haha. and i saw MRS LIM!!! was so glad to see her!! haven seen her since aug last year!!! its always times like this when i start missing my days in sc all over again. times when she continuously remind/nag at us to take our studies seriously, that we should always hand in out work on time. oh then she asked me whether im still in touch with xiuhui.. haha. told her that we still do meet up occasionally, and she said that its good to hear that we are still in touch.. haha.

oh ya, before my appointment, xinling and i roamed the square that just opened not long ago at novena, its a really nice place to shop. its something like bugis, with all the different kind of small small shops that sells all the different different things. from clothes to accessories to shoes and the prices are not too bad. haha. moreover, it isnt crowded and there aint any queues!! haha. we stepped into this shop that sells all sort of earrings!!! there were SO MANY la.. im serious.. if nobody believes me, ask xinling!! haha. that xinling said fortunately she dint pierce her ears, if not there goes her allowance.. haha. see, so i sldnt be blamed for buying so many earrings.. :p haha. k la, but i know it sldnt be an excuse.. lolx.

oh, i dint know that soya bean ice-cream exist.. haha. its quite nice.. lolx.

just because....

2007-05-22T20:28:00.000+08:00

just got home. went to collect my specs.. haha. finally.. lolx.. theres training tml, kinda looking forward to it ((:

anw keepz and i went to watch ac/sa rugby match ytd and i met many other 4 gracians.. haha. andrea, xiuhui, nellie, cindy.. saw qijun and jiahui there too..been a while since i last saw them la..

just came across this phrase and thought it was quite meaningful..

" just because somebody doesnt love you the way you love them doesnt mean that they dun love you with all that they have "

quite true aye?

i pray..

2007-05-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

i need the strength and confidence to pull thru..

simple things in life

2007-05-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

i realise small things as simple as going to shop for earrings or colourful pens add colours to my life ((:

happiness can be found close at hand..
look around you rather than reaching too high..

dependency

2007-05-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

Dependency?

dependency takes place due to various reasons.. it could be due to the lack of confidence, the desires for security and support, the fear of having no guidance or support, of being unwanted or unworthy of love, the need for reassurance, or to one who doesnt know what to do next and freezes up in stressful situations..

i realised a little dependency is definitely heart-warming. it makes us have a sense of security and we dun feel lost and alone. i mean in life, im quite sure everyone, if not most will want someone to depend on, someone they can go to seek comfort, to count on.. regardless of how strong the person is, there will definitely be a time when he or she breaks down and need a listening ear or a shoulder to lean on. However it shouldnt be excessive.. Being overly-dependent makes us loose our sense of direction and we might feel lost and disorientated when that certain thing we used to depend on disappears oneday..

Moreover when we were too dependent on it, we tend to neglect the many other things that were around us in which we might regret after realising it.. by then it probably would have been too late since the damage has been done, the pain had been inflicted. i guess thats what it meant by in gaining something, we loose other things in the process. We should let ourselves be expose to other things and not be too sheltered..

Whether its towards something or even that particular someone, we shouldnt be overly reliant.. as afterall it ultimately depend solely on ourselves to succeed (:

memories..

2007-05-14T22:14:00.000+08:00

i dunno why but i was super slpy in school today. its not as if i slept really late last night too.. i guess its cause i slept too much over the weekends. lolx. did my 5 stations today. and I CANT DO SIT AND REACH :( 37cm was my max :( :(

the thing that kept me going today was to meet dearest andrea, kristal and clara at island creamery.. was funnn catching up with them, updating each other on how each of us are getting on as well as other people's .. haha

oh and we met mrs susan lee there. she was my p6C math teacher.. haha. she was with her husband and daughter.. its kinda nice having a husband take time off to accompany you for ice-cream on a monday afternoon.. lolx.

it jus reminds me how much i miss sc.. the times where we all get together and have funn. as in the kinda joy we get is jus different.. imagine having known each other for more than 10 yearss.. having gone thru so much.. and im sure i will never forget any moments of it..

rock ac

2007-05-12T20:59:00.000+08:00

was supposed to do our 5 items ytd, but gladly it was postponed to either mon or fri, not sure.. cos the weather was ultra warm ytd..

was at rock ac last night. i would say it was bettter than i expected.. haha. yz, tam, kiku and i left slightly early before the result was realeased. i heard the drummers won, they were really good (: and xinling danced really well.. her hard work and sacrifices definitely paid off.. ((: had dinner at subway again as we were craving for subway cookies AGAIN..? haha.

ohh, i finally played frisbee ytd after lets say 2 months? haha. yaaa, i haven touched it since the march hols.. missed those times when our class played it during our long breaks.. and i still cant do my backhand!! :( :(

needa go read my gp package now..anyway here are some of the photos we took randomly ytd.. (:

enlightenment..

2007-05-11T00:23:00.000+08:00

should be sleeping soon.. haha. *yawns* just completed my 16 marks geog essay.. suddenly i feel liberated.. haha. so glad that im finally done. lolx. felt guilty for going to holland v to eat during the long break, should have stayed in school to study.. sighs. but nonetheless, learnt some life lessons from THE GREAT.. haha. we all talked for almost 2 hrs before going back for chem.. learned and came to realise the complicating facts of life..

i seriously sat down and thought to myself.. how it would be like for me in the future? whether i want to be someone with great achievements or someone who just depended and lived on others? set goals.. we start by setting goals.. goals are something we work towards, that motivates us, that helps us keep our focus and prevent distractions. even if its something unrealistic. even if it doesnt turn into reality, at least we know that we have tried our best, that we lived life to the fullest..

Failure is when we give up without trying
where we fall and refuse to get up..

“The only real failure in life is the failure to try"

We should see failure as nature's plan to prepare one for great responsibilities..
A stumble now may prevent a fall in the future..

We see that to succeed takes time and prolonged effort
And
We work towards it.. (:

As Success is through diligence and peseverance..

(:

2007-05-05T20:20:00.000+08:00

changed the song on my blog.. i know it sounds sad, qiannie said the guy sounded as if he was gonna cry.. but its really a nice song.. try listening.... (:

heard of this verse ytd during chapel and i thought it was really meaningful, "where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; where there is sadness, joy; to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love. For it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are pardoned; and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. " i guess life is that unpredictable. sometimes we face the unexpected or sometimes when problems arise and we dunno how to face it.. at this point of time we should always stay positive and HOPE.. haha.

theres math and chem test coming up next week. i ought to start preparing for it :( procrastinating wun do me any good.. cya (:

spiderman

2007-05-02T23:11:00.000+08:00

just got home after watching spiderman. its a good show (: rushed there after gp where gp ended at 615 la.. then yinzhen and i rushed down to town.. my movie was at 630!! haha. moreover it was after working hours. so by the time i got there was around 7.05? haha. i really thought i would have been locked out.. lolx.

gp was terrible.. haha. wrote essay where i think i wrote out of point.. and i completely had no idea what i was writing for AQ.. :( and my fingers were numb from all the writing.. haha. i was telling qianne i would laugh la if i walked into the theatre and fall asleep..haha.

anw i thought this was quite meaningful, "when you feel that you are in wrong and terribly sorry for something, you should do the hardest thing first, that is to forgive yourself before asking others for their forgiveness.. (:

a quote to share (:

2007-05-01T19:21:00.000+08:00

just got back from tuition.. sighs, studying on a public hol just isnt productive for me :( anw, had our 2.4 ytd, the guys will be running on fri.. luckily the weather was nice to run (: heard fr yy that pj gals did their 2.4 ytd too.. however e guys ran in the afternoon and she was telling me that she stayed back after school to time keep for the guys. i was wondering how nice of her la.. and the ultimate reason was cos of cip hours.. i knew it la!! hahaha.

theres gp mock exam tml and i realise that my gp file is still in tammie's locker.. going out for dinner soon..

anyway xinling wrote this on my notebook and i thought it was really meaningful..

do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. all you need is to love without getting tired..

i was so bored.. so ya this was what happened.. haha.

thats another week..

2007-04-28T10:03:00.000+08:00

another week just went by.. had a busy week.. my first chem tuition on tues. it was good but tiring. cos i end sch at 6 every tues and had to rush down to chua chu kang by 7.. i also got to meet my special someone (dun worry your name isnt here. haha) tuition was supposed to end at 915 but it extended till 945! got home quite late.. cant imagine how it will be like if every tues was gonna be like that.. :(

wed we had track and field meet after school. it ended only around 6 plus.. we were so restless that qiannie, erwin, grace and i decided to look for joel, since he suddenly disappeared mysteriously.. haha. arthya joined us soon too.. haha. we searched from LT4 to the viewing gallery to the rooftop and to oldham. i dint know ac had a rooftop.. haha. but it was quite nice up there, a good view of the school.. however soon after eugene chua spotted us and through the loud speaker he said, "the 4 people up there, please come down now" as it was gonna rain and if lightning struck i guess we will be the first to go.. haha.

some of us went to support fangling at delta ytd. i felt ac played well, however we drew and lost to MI based on goal difference... :( and met alyssa ytd, pj against vj. haven seen her in a while, i dint know she was in hockey (:

baked cookies last night.. haha. dunno wad went into me when i had the sudden urge to bake at 9? haha.

100th post

2007-04-23T16:27:00.000+08:00

i realised that this is my 100th post!! haha. not supposed to be blogging but so nan de that im finally home early!! haha. its pouring outside la and im home alone cos my maid went to pick my bro up from the bus stop, he dint have his umbrella with him and he just called to tell me that she's at the wrong bus stop waiting for him, he cant do anything cos its pouring and i cant do anything cos im locked in.. haha.. i guess they have to wait for the rain to stop.. lolx.

went to holland v with yinzhen and tammie just now. cos suddenly i had the craving for RASPBERRY CHEESECAKE from coffeebean.. lolx. felt guilty after that :p cos earlier we celebrated yuling's brithday and poh bought blackforest cake from bangawan solo which had a lot of cream on it.. and a few hours later ya..haha. felt so sinful..lolx.

anyway, yinzhen came up with this theory that " as long as we truely enjoy the food we eat, it isnt fattening.. " ((:

another week

2007-04-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

its friday!! this week went by exceptionally fast.. i guess its probably cos im now always in school till aound 6 plus 7? it really gets tiring as each day goes by.. sometimes i just feel like giving up.. but i cant. i really cant. its only the begining and i have a long way to go.. thats my goal (:

P-R-O-C-R-A-S-T-I-N-A-T-I-O-N
i guess thats the main reason why we are all for down for extra lessons..

cold?

2007-04-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

just had to say training was fun today (: though not many people went.. haha. anw heres a super cold joke i heard during training.. (guess who said it? lolx)

which part of the body is most honest?

ans: the hips

why?

cos hips dun lie -.- haha.

TWIN

2007-04-16T19:58:00.000+08:00

thought of writing something specially for MY BELOVED TWIN! haha.

thanks for always being there, standing by my side and encouraging me. Though first 3 mths was short, i really treasured every moments of it. it has also made me realise that having someone like you was the greatest thing that could ever happen.

whenever i am in doubt, you are constantly there to ensure me.telling me that i am not alone cause you will always be there..and the stuff we do together, pouring our woes and sorrows at each other, is something i will never forget. you are always there to lend a listening ear.. Being around you just makes me forget that theres a thing call FEAR..

Knowing you was one of the greatest things that happened to me and the only thing i regret is not having known you sooner (:

btw, who's xinn? (:

memories

2007-04-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

one week went by since my last entry.. time really flies and its already april.. sighs..

brought camera to school on wed and we started taking photos during training. was super funn, we took random photos and got coach to take with us.. haha. it felt as if training has ended officially and we were taking some group photo for the last time.. sadly however not everyone was there :(

got back pw grades today, we were one of the last schools to know our grades as it was only released to us at 2pm! many others schools already got to know theirs in the morning.. and laoying was the first to msg me asking mine, unwilling to tell me hers until i got mineee..!! lolx. met up with tong later in the day as pe was cancelled due to the heavy rain.. we caught up on a lots of stuff.. thanks for always being there for me (:

for the past few days, there were lots of stuff i had to settle, dunno how to put it into words but im glad that i have managed to think it through.. to get my life back on track (:

gotta wake up early tml for swim meet, i really hope i wun be late.. haha. nights (:

wad can i say.. FUNN (:

2007-04-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

this week went by fast. haha. so glad tml's a holiday ((: a time for rest and to catch up on work..met up with minx and yy on mon and we ate at billybombers, which i think was the main reason why i felt so broke by the end of the week!! haha. haven seen minx in ages!!

had training on tues, missed jess, gina they all so much, haven seen them for a while since i have been missing trainings for the past week due to unexpected circumstances.. really!! haha. training was good and funn x) but everyone had no idea why guoneng was emo-ing.. :p

oh jp changed quite a bit since the last time i was there. went to get a gift for my brother and guess wad erwin and i walked one big round just to get to the bus interchange when we could have just turned left! and when we were at the interchange, we realised that 174 is at lane 7 while we were still at lane 1. so as we walked past lane 2, 174 came, and we had to run all the way to lane 7!! was quite an 'interesting' experience. lolx.

anyway met up with minx, yy and yx today. has been a long time since the 4 of us got tgt. i seriously miss the times we had in sc.. laughing and fooling around.. :p

YOU GUYS HAVE DEFINITELY ADDED COLOURS TO MY LIFE (:

HOPE

2007-04-01T18:34:00.000+08:00

quite a lot happened last week. there were mixed emotions. devastation, helplessness, hope and a sense of urgency. reality struck me and everything came crashing down.. i tried holding back the tears.. everything was in turmoil to the entent i felt i couldnt see the light ahead..

but im glad that i have thought it through with the help of my friends around me. thank you so much.. hopefully i can now see the light at the end of the tunnel..

moreover its a new week.. so we should all look ahead and think positive.. ((:

Anyway music and lyrics is really a great show..

Way back into love (Music and Lyrics)
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

its the song playing on my blog :p

bad sign?

2007-03-25T18:58:00.000+08:00

my left eye is still twitching.. why why why..

i think something bad is gonna happen or has happened :(

HELP!! [ oh mine, i sound so superstitious :p but really :(( how!! ]